Just some writing I did in my art journal I thought I would include on a difficult day.
It is not easy to be me today. It is difficult to practice self care when I feel I should be stronger. Kindness when I feel I don;t deserve it. Ignoring community when I want to be alone. Anxiety has been overwhelming for me lately and harder because I don’t understand why. Spring is a beautiful season of rebirth. I feel like I fight with fists every rebirth ass it comes my way. Maybe I have fear that the rebirth will be worse than my current life. I will just take my day. I will do only the things that help me today and exclude all that don’t. I will choose a cup of tea, a paintbrush and a good book and live inside my own world.
This will pass.
I will embrace whatever newness appears because I am strong.
This is what came out with my paintbrush today. I picture myself in the little house waiting for an easier sunnier day. Enjoy the poem by Mary Oliver.
Fight hard my friends. Brighter days are on their way.
Christine
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